3 weeks

I weighed today. And I'm really skinny as hell and I weigh 49 kg now. really need to get fat before thinking about anything else. I kinda feel like if I don't change anything to make myself more attractive, on the outside and inside, I would be lonely in the rest of my life.

crying

I've asked myself so many times why I would think about someone who doesn't think of me. I've told myself so many times that I should just give up and be happy again.
oh god.
why